Intention

In my last meditation session, I noted that I had an intention behind that particular session. The intention was to still my thoughts and get to the quiet place for more peace of mind. Then I recalled other sessions where I intended to escape from overwhelming events or feelings. Other sessions, the intention was a noble, "I'm doing my meditation like a good girl." thinking. Each meditation session begins with a specific intention -- they are not always the same.

Daria and Asher forever 

A Space Below Thought

I sit in repose. I recite in my mind,"Arising" as I breathe in. "Passing" as I breathe out.

I watch thoughts passing through my mind. I see my awareness follow after one thought and then I even see my awareness hunt for my favorite thoughts. I see how I tangle up in a thought and the thought becomes my body in the form of a pain in the area I call "back" or "stomach", a hunger sensation, or a desire to feel warmer sensations on my skin.

I observe that below all thought is a space -- a wide open space of just simple pure awareness. Inside of this awareness is knowing. I sometimes touch that still space, and then the thoughts begin again to think themselves and bombard awareness, and there goes the chase after thoughts again, and the attachment to favorite thoughts. It really is a soap opera sometimes.

So I keep on sitting and watching. Sometimes there is a silence so still I fear I'll fall into an abyss of nothingness -- fear of being fully relaxed. All passing phenomenon...